I don't normally post specifically about my life but a lot has been happening recently so I thought it was about time I wrote about it. I've not posted anything in three days and it's driving me crazy!
Almost four weeks ago now I made the decision to split from my boyfriend. We'd been together for around three years and lived together. It wasn't an easy decision at all but I know that it's the right one. Nothing bad has happened; we just grew apart and I had been feeling miserable for quite a while. We were always waiting for something to come along and make us better; finishing university, moving, finding jobs. I realised that we shouldn't need something else to improve our relationship and I felt as though we were just putting off going our separate ways. I will always care about him and wish him the best for his future. I'm concentrating on becoming the confident, independent girl I was before.
I found a new flat but I'm still waiting on the paperwork to come through so that I can move. It's really difficult to live with someone you've broken up with; I wouldn't advise it but I don't have a choice at the moment. I need to move within the next week so can everyone please keep their fingers crossed?! I'm going to be living by myself which is both scary and exciting at the same time. I'm looking forward to making it my own without anyone telling me that I have too many cushions!
On a more positive note, I was offered a job yesterday. A job I really wanted. I'm beyond delighted about that and can't wait to start a week on Monday. I've also got to thank my friends for being the best people in the world over the past few weeks. The lovely things they've done for me make me want to cry more than anything else has! Some of those friends are probably reading this right now; I want to thank you for the comments, tweets, emails and anything else you've said or done in the last month. I've appreciated every single one of them and don't know how I'll be able to thank you enough. 140 characters doesn't sound like a lot but sometimes they mean so much.
If you find yourself in a similar position to me or if you're struggling with The Big Stuff in life please don't be afraid to make a decision to keep someone else happy or because the consequences would be too difficult. You're all a lot stronger than you think and sometimes you just have to be brave and selfish. Your happiness is ultimately your priority and if something is making you miserable it's up to you to change it if you can. You'll soon realise that you're not alone.